So, I'm bored.

Right. I know no one reads this, which is awesome. Because mech's got something he just...wants to whine about and all indications are that blogs are the best places to whine about things.  

Though...that means I'm becoming more and more like you humans. Which is...disturbing. 

Anyway.  The irony is, Cade wants to whine because he's lonely. HAHAHAHAHAAH. Funny, right?  It's like there's a voice in my head and it won't go away. And it's not Frenzy's voice. And it doesn't work just me hearing it. Not even ME talking to it. It wants to be heard by someone else. 

It...kinda scares me.

Can I confess something?  

My...uhhh...little motto thing? pacis quod alcedonia? 

I have like a...systems wide reaction to it.  Like...really.  What a human might call a nervous stomach. Twitchy. Restless.  On the verge of a breakdown. It brings me too close to...something. I don't know if it's a clue to something or not.  I don't know what it means. I don't know why it bothers me. I don't know if I should...let go. Go to that brink. Open up. Crack open. Spill out. 

I don't know.

And I'm scared.

And I've never felt so lonely in my fragging life.